Welcome to Field Notes of a Conscious Dying Guide

My hopes are to be part of reconstructing our death denying notions, not to make it out to be all pretty and positive but to bring awareness to its truths, sacredness and hidden beauty. To navigate ... how we can endure impermanence.

I am a curious mortal, who has always been walking the path of unlearning and going against the grain. Being proven wrong when it brings me closer to the truth is always welcome.

This Conscious-Death-Guide calling has taken hold of me, learning, sharing and questioning everything about life and death. It has left me with little choice but to dive in and submerge myself below the surface, swimming and exploring in the weeds.

Constantly searching for truths that reveal themselves through dreams, conversations and in unexplored areas that I would have never imagined to look. Finding that

death is our final rite of passage, our rite to ancestorship.

The Night it all began, When Death Stopped by to Say, “Hello.”

There I was, in that space between the two worlds of sleep and here. This old house and its aging bones grumbling in disagreement with the nights idea of quiet. It wasn't so late when I fell asleep, dreaming a dream my memory promised never to tell me.

Appearing from nowhere, a flash of my face ...

with all the feelings of taking my very last breath.

I sat up with a gasp of all the air I couldn't find in my dream...

3 am, it has finally made it to the surface, this fear, that came through in a majestic message. My death denying notions can no longer live with me.

 I know it wasn’t real?! But my feelings sure were.

Laying still ...

shocked ...

my nervous system in overdrive ...

these eyes wouldn't close until the next night.

Dying is the hardest thing we will ever do or witness, it reveals truths we may never uncover and deserves reverence. How can we prepare to endure?

Let's prepare to make death kinder to ourselves and our loved ones.

 Let's feel - acknowledge - explore - discover

in the pages of Living & Dying

Field Notes of a Conscious Dying Guide.

Throughout these pages we will explore, question and discover ways to endure and be with impermanence, the inevitable.